5 stages of Grief & my Dear Husband ~

1. Denial 2. Bargaining 3. Anger 4. Despair 5. Acceptance

Despair ~
I only pray that one day he will be able to move to another stage ~ he seems to be stuck!
When he is ready he will read ~

Posted by a friend the day our "son" left us ~ November 30, 2007

I am aware that there are already groups out for Jon, but both have improper spelling of his first and last name. I have created this group out of request by his little sister.
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Jon will be missed by all, forgotten by none, and carried on through each one of us for the rest of our lives. He carried a huge place in a lot of people's hearts, and for that, we must be thankful. Not only has he helped us to learn the power of laughter in sorrowful times, but he has also taught us each to not take life for granted.

Jonathan was an unbelievable son, brother, and friend. He will forever be imprinted in our hearts, and may his soul be carried on forever through the memories we have of him.

Jon is in a better place, where it's safe and sound. He is looking down on each of us, and I know he wants us to all be strong. Jonathan fought until he couldn't fight any longer, and now he's resting in peace.

R.I.P. Jonny boy, we all love you.
Yes, we do love u~

I try each day to say thank you ~

I have had so much on-line support from the beginning, you have no idea how many email's and thank you' notes ~ I want and need to respond too!

Let's not talk about all the cards and help I received from real people that I have to thank.

I have 7 cards that I purchased in the beginning to send to 7 special people ~ those 7 special people will have to wait, as it is to difficult to find the words that are buried in my heart, it's going to take time to dig them out.

It is my duty as a mother, a friend, a human being to get this job done. It is part of the healing process at least for me - last night I emailed someone to obtain an address, to my surprise and humbleness, I received the following note back.

Vonna,
Please don't worry about sending me a 'proper' thank you...I should be thanking you.
I draw strength from those around me, and I have probably drawn more strength from you than anyone else.
I almost lost my child a few years ago, my child survived. I can't imagine what it would be like to walk in your shoes. Know that I love you, admire and respect you, and am so sorry for your loss.

Hugs,
**a friend of mine ~ that I have never met ~

I got my glass on Saturday along with a beautiful note from this awesome lady who is gonna have a baby ~ she told me it's the year of the RAT ~ She also sent me a book I shall treasure and pass along to the next who is in need ~ The Grief Recover Handbook ~

I am reading and reading well...

Jon's Friends still miss him ~

1. It's still taken me some time to process all this..
I hope your soul is resting peaceful, John, and I'm sure the big guy upstairs will embrace you and show you the love that you've been looking for. I know we kinda fell off in the past, but you're in my prayers. May your spirit live on to learn, grow and teach. The laughter that you spread and the smiles that you created will never be forgotten. It's all love kid.

2. I cant believe this, I met you in like 6th grade, and you were one of the coolest guys id ever met man. I remember we couldn't hang out for some time because all we ever did was get in trouble together. just careless kids s***, and now everything got so damn different. I'm so glad i got to see you the other week, and now your not here with us. Man ill be missing you.
RIP my friend.

3. Jon I've known you longer than I have known most people. I was reminiscing about all the crazy things we did as kids and it made me laugh to think about how simple life used to be. I cant believe this has happened, truly I'm in shock. RIP buddy I know someday I'll see you again.
peace & ♥ always

4. Remember the first time we ever skated? We went to Vernon hills and skated with k*** and e***. Walmart rail, Rob's barn, u thrashed it skating. I remember skating downtown and you had b*** and just jumped on that handrail by union station. uncanny. gonna miss you bro.
skate on forever........

5. I cant believe it, I met you 7 years ago man. I'll never forget you man. you were one of a kind.

6. I still seem to catch my heart breaking and me loosing my breath every time i think about you too long or catch myself meeting your eyes in pictures...