Thursday, September 3, 2009

Good Grief Bad Grief what is the difference?

Good Grief Bad Grief what is the difference?

Friendship & Understanding.

I am sad - I am angry, I am ~ I don't know what I am ~

I wrote to a friend to apologize for not remembering to do something ~ this is what she wrote to back.

Vonna ~ absolutely no apologies necessary; not between us. This is just from my own experience, but I feel the whole grieving process is going on subconsciously and consciously. We go along, living our lives and a thought or a feeling or a scent overtakes us, and we feel such pain; like we've been blindsided. However, I really believe that along with the grieving is the healing that is also going on, even though it may be hard to perceive. Does this sound like psychobabble? I don't mean it to. If you want to have a chat, just let me know. You know I'm here for you.

The numbness wore off and the reality has set in!
The bad so to speak ~
The time is here for me - in three months it shall be 2 years -- it seems just like yesterday we had lunch, and then I called 911 - you know I can't write anymore, at least anything that would make sense - I just know he is not here and I am afraid that if I don't think about him every day - I shall forget him ~ I can't he was and still is my son - who I miss from the bottom of my heart and soul!

Thank you my friend for being their for me!

2 inspiring comments:

one-eared pig said...

Don't be afraid of forgetting him, you never will. His life is part of your life, which means (at least to me) that he is always remembered as you live each day. For example, after my dad died (and I am in no way comparing the death of a parent to the death of a child. I don't have children and I can't imagine the pain), when I thought of my dad, I thought of strength and loyalty. Eventually, I didn't have to think about him every day, because now when I experience strength and loyalty or other attributes my dad had, I get a warm feeling that brings me comfort. I don't have to worry about forgetting him, because who he was lives on in me, and also in others that he has touched.


vonna said...

You have always been their for me - just wish you were not so far away! I need to feel these next three months - just wish everyone else won't forget - maybe they just remember silently. I can always count on you 'pig pig' you are very special to me ~ love v

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