my parents never told me

my parents never told me ~

there is a time to grieve
there is a time to breathe
there is a time to wake up
there is a time to go to bed

there is no time to listen to someone tell you when are you going to just STOP!

no, no, no, no, no it won't just stop ~ it will be with you forever
that's why I have such good friends who like to poke me

Grief Support After the Death of a Child

“The Compassionate Friends is about transforming the pain of grief into the elixir of hope. It takes people out of the isolation society imposes on the bereaved and lets them express their grief naturally. With the shedding of tears, healing comes. And the newly bereaved get to see people who have survived and are learning to live and love again.”
—Simon Stephens, founder of  The Compassionate Friends

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The Clock of Life ~

I dedicate this to you Kerry ~
I shall miss you dearly ~

The clock of life is wound but once,
And no man has the power
To tell just when the hands will stop
At late or early hour.

To lose one's wealth is sad indeed,
To lose one's health is more,
To lose one's soul is such a loss
That no man can restore.

The present only is our own,
So Live, Love, toil with a will --
Place no faith in 'Tomorrow' --
For the clock may then be still.

Robert H. Smith
©1932-1982

Sometimes ~

It's just hard, but you just have to keep moving, get up everyday, no matter what. Take a shower, take a bath, just get dressed ~ get through the day, even if it is minute by minute or second by second.
YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT!
YOU HAVE TO TELL YOURSELF YOU WILL!

Well I went and did it ~

I contacted the Oprah producers to see if I could get some help with regards to helping others through me - especially the children. Let's just hope they don't run with my idea as I did not give up to much in writing them. I just don't want to get burned, like I have in the past with my idea's.

The sun is out, but bitter cold outside. "HOW COLD IS IT YOU SAY" -
Just Too Cold for me............

Wish me luck with getting them to contact me back.

I know in my heart my Jon is not gone, the memories, the friends of his I see ~ the little things ~ he does lives on.

The petition is in the works to name the Skate Park after him, I should be able to get this done today.

One last thought ~ dream a little dream 4 me ~
Smiles 4 the day ~ mom

Another last thought - for those of you who try to force yourself before you are ready to do something you don't want to do - don't do it - grief takes time!
The loss of a child can be incomprehensible to some, even yourself.

I went to the book store on a mission today, I purchased the book I wanted. Strolling down the isles I of course got distracted ~ Drinking my Grande Breve Latte ( which I really can't afford ) from Starbucks and yes I can make it myself - see off topic I go again ~

"How a Person Dies" ~ not a good book for me to read at this stage of my grief, as the coroner hasn't come up with results yet.. my imagination left me filled with tears and sadness today.

Where am I now, laying in bed typing in the blog - resting my back as, yes I am such an Idiot for going outside in below zero weather which aggravated the arthritis in my spine.

Some of you may have heard me say this before, what doesn't kill ya makes ya stronger.. Growl - here me roar!